Lost: Control

In a place far far away everybody´s happy, there´s no sorrow, no pain.

But this is the real world and the aching stays.

It all went dark and I lost my sense of reality.

I went down with the suction to this cold dark place.

It felt good for a short while.

Now the buttons open and I wonder why.

How come it was me who fell into this hole.

How come I stayed there for so long.

I suppose I like the darkness.

It´s safe.

But now´s the time to break free.

No more darkness only light.

No more shame, no more hate.

Only a life, only a chance

Only a moment to change.

Taking it, never easy.

But I will.

And I believe that a year from now

I´m free from this burden.

I´m free from the pain.

The buttons will stay closed.

Cause that´s who I am.

Once bed was a place to sleep in,

Now it´s something larger than life.